"It's impossible" said pride. "It's risky" said experience. "It's pointless" said reason. "Give it a try" whispered the heart.
Most of you probably know that I have recently just retired from my "real" job to pursue a photography career. Crazy, I know! The decision to "retire" took a lot of time and many prayers before I committed and took a leap of faith. Believe me when I say that there were MANY low's, MANY scared "What If's", but also MANY happy thoughts during the decision process.
The quote really made me think about all the pros and cons that my Cowboy and I discussed during our decision making process. For my Cowboy it was a very analytical process. Those of you that know my Cowboy, know that he is a spread sheet king. It doesn't matter what the decision is........he always lays out the pros and cons in a spread sheet. If the spread sheet has more pros than cons......we go for it. If there are more cons than pros...........we drop the subject. I'm pretty sure he even did a spread sheet with the decision being......."Should I ask Missy to marry me?" I'm not kidding!
In the very beginning, all that I knew was that my "real" job caused me to be on the road away from home every week. And I knew that wasn't what I wanted. However, after looking for jobs close to home for 2 years and no positive possibilities in sight, the idea of getting to get off the road seemed "IMPOSSIBLE".
I knew if no one was willing to hire me locally..........I'd have to take matters into my own hands. That matter was photography. I'd always enjoyed photography, in fact I took a few photography classes in college. Now I needed someone who could push me. Someone who shared the same interests as me and wanted to grow in the photography world just like me. That person soon came into my life. Debbie was the person that influenced me to Eat, Sleep, and Live Photography. And that's what we did. (And still do) There isn't a free moment that I don't use to research something about photography. But wether or not I love photography, it wasn't a guaranteed pay check. And this is where I began to feel I was making a "RISKY" decision.
I might have felt that I was making a risky decision, but my Cowboy's spread sheet said it was doable. So the decision was made. We put a plan together (a financial plan). All we had to do was stick to the plan and all would be fine. However, there were times that I felt like our financial plan was going no where! Was my dream of being home and doing something that I love, "POINTLESS"?
This was the point were words of encouragement and love came from my Cowboy, family, and friends. As long as you have that you can do anything! I feel like Super Woman......I don't look like her (I'm working on that!). I feel that I can take on anything. Dream of anything. I know now that I have followed my heart and I "GAVE IT A TRY".
I can't thank my Cowboy enough for standing behind me during this adventure. I know that while there have been huge changes in my life, there have been "HUGE" changes in his life as well. For example, he now has a wife that is home every day and every night reminding him of things he's done wrong ie. toilet seat, putting clothes away, throwing trash away. As with any change in life, I know there will be struggles and down moments. But I can honestly tell you that I have never been as happy as I am right now. I am where I'm supposed to be.
MW
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